can someone jst pull me outta this. i thought im alright, that evrything's over. im sorry, but i thought wrong. we're jst not meant to be, i know. i should have known that on that stupid night. the night i stupidly fell for yur hypocrisy. i should have known that evrything was a lie. im sorry for being so dumb. i should have known that yu didnt mean anything yu said. whatever means it takes, please wake me up. i rly dont wna be like this anymore. im jst outta strength to help myself outta this. so many things i wna tell. so many confessions i wna make. so many questions i wna ask. jst deperately searching for the words inside of my head now. yur the only who could bring me outta sadness, tho i brought myself back in. yur the only one who could listen and wake me up, tho i would make myself fall back into deep sleep. yur the only one who evr made my tears flow this much, tho i still think it wasnt for no worth. yur the only one. my only one. but im getting over this. i know its jst not possible. im still standin strong, like the way yu taught me to. i'll spread my wings and fly away from this abyss someday, like yu taught me to. i'm gna soar up high into the never-ending skies, like yu taught me to. i'll never forget the words yu'd tell me when i was down. im nvr gonna neglect the faith yu gave me. im nvr gonna forget the angels yu taught me about. i still rmbr these words so clearly, like its left a mark on me. i guess they're deeply etched onto me alrdy. yes, yur that forbidden fruit. but how'd yu know about this? yu went to blurrfied blog, huh. whatever. dont tell me we gotta stay away. evryone's getting over these, yur the only one left and we're waiting for yu. always. dont tell me my friends make yu feel like staying and not moving on. sheesh, dont push the blame away. no one can bring yu down, thats what yu told me. thats why i say yu dont mean anything yu say. yur forever so contradictive. cant yu jst tell me how yu feel, for real, for once? im tired of hearing yu say yur two views of things. im sick of all these contradiction. i wna hear yu speak the truth for once. i want yu to tell me whats on yor mind, for once. i want yu to tell me yor reasons for wanting us to all keep away, the reasons yu said would hurt if i knew em. nothing would evr hurt, now that i've learnt to stand strong. i've gone thru the worst of the worsts, what can evr be rockier? i jst want to know whats goin on in yor mind. it jst so seems that yur getting rly distant. we're not in the past anymore, tell me why is this so. yu said yu still needed me to listen to yor troubles, now yu tell me we gotta stay away. i wna scream and shout at yu. to let my tears flow, for the last time. to cuddle up and cry, for the last time. but i cant do these anymore. because i know. thats weakness in yor eyes.

i need a hug -badly.